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[Sep. 13th, 2007|04:53 pm] |
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Considering I don't ever use this thing I thought I'd give it a BASH. (Ignore my two other posts which I deleted) Nobody will read this but it's for like....to get a load of crap out my head basic-ally.
I'm really annoyed today because none of my "group" are actually bothered about me outside of 6th form it's like they don't even want me there and my best friend isn't even a proper best friend she never cares about what I do or anything and I knowwww that these issues are extremely teenagery WELL EXCUSE ME FOR BEING A TEENAGER. Ugh.
Also not having any money is pissing me off, I can't even go out tonight to take my mind off Harriet's stupid birthday 'meal' which I'm not invited too. Right so me and Harriet have a kind of bi-curious fucked up past, but we're supposed to be okay now and she goes to me "I want to be your friend still, I just don't want you there. I hope you understand" ERM NO I DON'T UNDERSTAND. So yeah I can't even go out tonight to some gig that costs like a fiver! It's awful. Also I have nothing to wear to this party on saturday.
INFACT I have nothing to wear full stop. I never have any new clothes or anything due to lack of funds, that's part of the reason why I don't feel like I fit in with my "group" I mean I have a different fashion sense to them anyway (in that I don't have one) but I'd still like some new clothes. They spend money all the time on crap and gigs and crap. And they know all these people who would never even be interested in meeting me. I AM SOCIALLY LOWER THAN THEM.
Argh. It's 2 months and 16 days until my 18th birthday and if I don't have a job by then I will definately atleast CONSIDER suicide.
I'm not even gonna read this back because obviously I'm just going to sound like a complete (o'?)TOOL but I might write in here fairly regularly now because it might improve my English skills or something and it's going to take a miracle for me to maintain my B at A-level. |
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